tests

This post is really for me.....We come to life to be tested and tried and see if we will prove ourselves to our Father in Heaven.  It seems to me that I am a slow learner - if I wasn't I wouldn't need to learn the same things over and over and over again.  I was reading this morning in 1 John and thinking about fellowshipping - what it means to me, how I show it, how we can use it to help others, etc.  I was grateful for that reminder of who I need to be and what I need to be learning.  I have been thinking a lot about things that I can't control - things that would make me happy if they happened but that are completely out of my control.  I'll admit that I was feeling sorry for myself (just ask my husband) and then I went to the temple this morning  and was blessed with a new perspective (so grateful). Something really small can change everything about how I function.  I was reminded of the lessons learned in the past (remember I am a slow learner or at least slow at remembering I learned something) and how I learned to best deal and cope with what the world was handing me at the time.  I guess more than anything I needed to think about what I can do to make how I feel change.  I am sure that those that live with me will welcome a less emotional me but it is just less emotional in some ways.  I hope and pray that I can keep the perspective I found today but when I don't (remember I am slow) I needed to record that Heavenly Father does listen, answer prayers and love me.  I just need to remember that.